why

"i honestly terasa w you since langkawi lagi. i nak hug na kiss and all you macam avoid"

you see me tak sayang you, berubah and all just through that way?

you didnt see my efforts?

even the wholeday before balik i tried to approach you back, you didnt see my efforts?

you didnt layan me back..

and yet you said you want terasa?

after langkawi, we were okay balik..

and you said to yourself  "buat apa aku nak kisah pasal dia kalau dia mcm ni?"

theres no words can describe how hurt i am dengar pengakuan you sayang

"i rapat dengan dia since i terasa w you.. sekali akma semua"

"i cari dia rapat dia tapi tak bermaksud lebih dari seorang bestfriend"

ya allah, kau kuatkan aku terima semua hukuman ni

memang semua salah aku atas sikap aku yang teruk

tak pernah jaga perasaan orang

tapi orang tak tau kenapa aku macam tu 

and bair lah aku sorang je tau 

perlu ke cari orang lain?
aku sedih aku nangis sorang
takda sorang tau takda sorang peduli
aku down aku depressed
takda sorang tanya keadaaan aku
aku kena kacau, takda orang tau
semua orang tak tau
yet, aku still sibuk nak tau hal orang..orang yang aku sayang

WHY?

you didnt cari me back?

you didnt put efforts to tanya me?

you didnt see i hurt?

you didnt see im crying?

you didnt feel i was waiting for you?

the day i called her, you choose to marah me?

she got so many of your selfies?

she still twitpic and talk so nicely and mcm ada something after i called her?

everytime i talk abour her, sebab i rasa dia tak respect her sooo called bff punya relationship you choose to marah me too?

WHY?

kes aqil, danish, semua.
we settle in your style
how they rspect my relationship sampai tak kisah i putus kawan w them
they terima you maki marah em
tak letak dendam on me
takda nak kacau hubungan kita
takda nak serabut kan kepala you
 but this one girl, you sangat sayang nak buang dia
you simpan dia
you choose her over me
and she keeps hurting me taoi you tak sedar
dia tak hormat you, you biarkan

why?

hati i sakit sangat
tolong i, i dah tak tahan tanggun semua ni
i tak mampu tanggung derita ni
i nak macam dulu, hati i sangat tenang, hubungan yang sangat aman

macam i dah ada pengganti, tapi you still nak i 

macam i ni simpanan you kat sini

macam i ni, nobody?

i didnt get the right treats from my bf

and i guess i will never get :( 

you je boleh jawab 

you je tau jawapan dia

and you je yang boleh fix semua ni